There have been a million things that I’ve found to fill the free time my lack of blogging has produced. Some of them, reading for example, have been fulfilling. Others, like baking, well… just filling.

I must say, my blogging life has been quite the rollercoaster and I have proven myself to be more than a tinsy bit inconsistent. Friends, some you may know, have been so steadfast in their postings that they’ve even managed to go on to bigger and better things. Their following along with their writing abilities and most likely their revenue have grown temendously. I, on the otherhand, have only been consistent in moving my blog, changing the name and starting over every time I’ve had the urge.

I’ve found out a lot about myself through my blogging experience though. I’ve realized how distasteful hypocrisy is to me and how much I love people who live what they write. I’ve found that I do not enjoy debates and contentious attitudes. I’ve found that putting any online activity before my family and their needs can not end well; that Internet friends are great but real life, flesh and bone, know you well enough to hold you accountable friends are far better. I now know that my grammar skills and my ability to use a semi-colon properly are both lacking. And finally I’ve learned that regardless of all of the above, I really love to write.

I miss putting my thoughts into words on a page. I want to write. Not for all the reasons I used to think I want to write though. Not to become popular. Not to make a lot of money. Not even to make friends online.

I want to write just to put down my thoughts on this journey called the Christian life. I want to be able to read my archives and see the things – small things, big things – all the things that God has done in me and through me. I don’t want to forget.

I don’t want to draw a crowd here unless it’s filled with people who want to praise the Lord for His great and mighty works.

My mind is focused on the things of the Lord as it was years ago when I started my first blog, A Humble Heart. I’m back on the path and quite unwilling to let the blogosphere push my off in any other direction again. I choose not to be part of the blogging community that I once allowed to have  a negative effect on my walk of faith.

In fact, I am not a blogger.

I just want to write.

Written by Lauren

4 Comments

Barb

I’ve followed you through all your blog changes, Lauren, and one thing I know for sure is that you ARE a writer and a good one. So write. And I will read. And I promise to not notice how you use semicolons. 🙂

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Stacey

You are an amazing writer, no matter what! I feel you’ve always been open and honest with those of us who read here. You don’t beat around the bush and I like that. Thank you for being you!

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aggiejenn

I can relate to so much you said in this post. Part of the reason I don’t blog anymore is because I have a wonderful real life friend (an answer to prayer) who is such a blessing! And we do REAL life stuff together! And also, I’m the mom of two rowdy toddlers and I don’t have a laptop. Them being unsupervised while I’m blogging in the computer room is NOT a good idea. 🙂 Keep writing, Lauren. Write from your heart about what your heart is passionate about. I used to admire those people who have huge blog followings and always write witty stuff. I’ve just got too much going on in my real life to work that hard at keeping the blog following up. Anyway, I’m rambling. And, I agree, aren’t the winters great here?

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