It never fails, I get the urge to blog but I don’t necessarily have the topic nailed down. I have a lot of thoughts running around in this little head of mine but not really a complete post. So I head to Walking Circumspectly or Amy’s Humble Musings to get some ideas. Bad move, as much as I love reading these blogs, these women are such eloquent writers that I end up just reading and totally avoiding the whole writing part.
Kristen and Amy both look so young in their pictures yet their writings exemplify years of wisdom. Most every verse or opinion I have considered blogging about is one they’ve already taken a swipe at and, I should add, they’ve done much better than I would have. Then today this dilemma caused me to start thinking about when I was their age, which was like soooo long ago; I saw life so differently than these two women, well actually any young godly woman.
God’s Word had no authority over my life until I was nearly thirty-three years old. I was unhappily married with two children, who by the way were being raised by a nanny that could not communicate with them in English. I owned my own stressful, all-consuming business and a home with an adjustable mortgage rate that seemed to have no ceiling. Yes, I was living the American dream (pronounced night’-mare’). It took adding the loss of a twin during my third pregnancy to make me realize that there had to be more to life. I soon found that “more” was Jesus the Christ.
So when I read the blogs of women who figured out the need to have Jesus take control so early in their life, I am amazed and well, delighted for them, their husbands, children, families, neighbors and everyone else they come into contact with on a daily basis. I am also a little intimidated but mostly it “spurs me on toward love and good deeds.” I wonder why it took me so long to see my need. I also anticipate how God will use my old life, which was so Romans 1:29-32ish that it makes me shudder.
Romans 1:29-32 (KJV)
Being filled with all unrighteousness, fornication, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, debate, deceit, malignity; whisperers, backbiters, haters of God, despiteful, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents, Without understanding, covenant breakers, without natural affection, implacable, unmerciful: Who knowing the judgment of God, that they which commit such things are worthy of death, not only do the same, but have pleasure in them that do them.
Yes, I have obviously lived a very different life than these godly younger sisters of mine (there was no such thing as a blog way back then either, can you imagine?), but I’m pretty sure that God can and will still use this old goat (read 42 year old). Maybe even to reach those lost younger women out there whose mindset I might just understand a little bit better than some.